Stop being a spectator in your own life

 Being able to navigateis an extraordinary gift, and there is nothing like it in the world. I get no more sense of satisfactiongreater than leaving a port and knowing that I can getmy team and my boat safely from that port to another port, maybe three, four, five,six thousand miles away. Being at sea, for me, is ... it's total freedom, and it is the ultimateopportunity to be you, because you can't be anything else. 

You are naked in frontof your peers on a boat. It is a small area. Maiden is 58 feet long. There's 12 women in a 58-foot boat. I mean, you are literallyup against each other, and so you have to be you. The greatest momentfor me when I'm sailing is the moment that the land disappears. It's an indescribable moment of -- (Gasps) adventure and no turning back, and just you and the boatand the elements. I wish everyone could experiencethis at least once in their lives. 

The further you get away from land, the more you kind of fit into yourself. It is you, how do we get to the next place, how do we stay alive, how do we look after each other and what do we doto get to the other side. So the question I get askedthe most when I go and do talks is "How do you becomean ocean-racing sailor?" And that's a really good question. 

And I've always wantedto say "I had a vision, which became a dream, which became an obsession," but, of course, life's not like that, and one thing I'm really anxiousfor people to know about me is that my life hasn't gone from A to B -- because how many people can saytheir lives just go from A to B; they think, "I'm going to do this,"and they go and do it? So I tell the truth. And the truth is that I was expelledfrom school when I was 15 years old, and my long-suffering headmastersent a long-suffering note to my long-suffering mother, basically saying that if Tracydarkens these doors of the school again, then we will call the police. 

And my mum took me and she said, "Darling, education is not for everyone." And then she gave me the bestpiece of advice anyone has ever given me. She said, "Every single one of usis good at something, you just have to go and findwhat that is." And at the age of 16, she let mego backpacking off to Greece. I ended up working on boats,which was OK -- 17 years old, didn't really knowwhat I wanted to do, kind of going with the flow. 

And then on my second transatlantic, my skipper said to me, "Can you navigate?" And I said, "Of course I can't navigate, I was expelled before long division." And he said, "Don't you thinkyou should be able to navigate? What happens if I fall over the side? Stop being a bystander in your own life, stop looking at what you're doing and start taking part." This day, for me, was the daythat my whole life started. I learned to navigate in two days -- and this is someone who hates numbers and sees them as hieroglyphics. It opened up avenues and opportunitiesto me that I could never have imagined. 

I actually managed to get a rideon a Whitbread Round the World Race boat. It was with 17 South African men and me. I was 21 years old, and it was the longestnine months of my life. But I went as a cook, I managed to survive until the end, and when I got to end of this race, I realized that there were230 crew in this race, and three women, and I was one of them. And I'm a lousy cook. I'm a really good navigator. I think the second most profoundthought in my entire life was: "No man is ever going to allow meto be a navigator on their boat, ever." 

And that is still the case today. In 35 years of the Whitbread, there's only been two female navigatorsthat haven't been on an all-female cruise, and that's how Maiden was born. That was the moment I thought,"I've got something to fight for." And I had no ideathat I wanted to have this fight, and it was something that I took tolike a duck to water. I discovered things about myselfthat I had no idea existed.

 I discovered I had a fighting spirit, I discovered I was competitive -- never knew that before -- and I discovered my second passion, which was equality. I couldn't let this one lie. And it became not just about mewanting to navigate on a boat and having to put my own crew together and my own team, raise my own money, find my own boat, so that I could be navigator. This was about women everywhere. And this was when I realized that this was probably what I was goingto spend the rest of my life doing. It took ages for us to find the money to do the 1989 WhitbreadRound the World Race. 

And as we looked at all the big, multimillion pound,all-male projects around us, with their brand-new shiny boatsdesigned for the race, we realized this was not going to be us. We had to make this up as we went along. No one had enough faith in usto give us this kind of money. So I mortgaged my house, and we found an old wreck with a pedigree, an old Whitbread boat -- it had already beenaround the world twice -- in South Africa. We somehow persuadedsome guy to put it on a ship and bring it back to the UK for us. The girls were horrifiedat the state of the boat. 

We got a free place in a yard. We got her up on the hardand we redesigned her, we ripped her apart, we did all the work ourselves. It was the first time that anyonehad ever seen women in a shipyard, so that was quite entertaining. Every morning when we would walk in, everyone would just gawk at us. But it also had its advantages,because everyone was so helpful. We were such a novelty. You know, we got givena generator, an engine -- "Do you want this old rope?" "Yep." "Old sails?" "Yep, we'll have those." 

So we really made it up as we went along. And I think, actually,one of the huge advantages we had was, you know, there was no preconceived idea about how an all-female crewwould sail around the world. So whatever we did was OK. And what it also didwas it drew people to it. Not just women -- men, anyone who'd ever been told, "You can't do somethingbecause you're not good enough" -- the right gender or right raceor right color, or whatever. Maiden became a passion. 

And it was hard to raise the money -- hundreds of companies wouldn't sponsor us. They told us that we couldn't do it, people thought we were going to die ... You know, guys would literallycome up to me and say, "You're going to die." I'd think, "Well, OK,that's my business, it's not yours." In the end, King Hussein of Jordansponsored Maiden, and that was an amazing thing -- way ahead of his time, all about equality. We sailed around the worldwith a message of peace and equality. 

We were the only boat in the racewith a message of any kind. We won two legs of the Whitbread -- two of the most difficult legs -- and we came second overall. And that is still the best resultfor a British boat since 1977. It annoyed a lot of people. And I think what it did at the time -- we didn't realize. You know, we crossed the finishing line,this incredible finish -- 600 boats sailing up the Solent with us; 50,000 people in Ocean Villagechanting "Maiden, Maiden" as we sailed in. 

And so we knew we'd done somethingthat we wanted to do and we hoped we'd achieved something good, but we had no idea at the timehow many women's lives we changed. The Southern Ocean is my favorite ocean. Each ocean has a character. So the North Atlantic is a yomping ocean. It's a jolly, go-for-it,heave-ho type of -- have-fun type of ocean. The Southern Oceanis a deadly serious ocean. And you know the momentwhen you cross into the Southern Ocean -- the latitude and longitude -- you know when you're there, the waves have been building, they start gettingbig whitecaps on the top, it becomes really gray, you start to get sensory deprivation. 

It is very focusedon who you are and what you are with this massive wilderness around you. It is empty. It is so big and so empty. You see albatrossesswirling around the boat. It takes about four daysto sail through their territory, so you have the samealbatross for four days. And they find us quite a novelty, so they literally windsurf off the windthat comes off the mainsail and they hang behind the boat, and you feel this presence behind you, and you turn around, and it's this albatrossjust looking at you. We sold Maiden at the end of the race -- we still had no money. 

And five years ago, we found her, at the same timeas a film director decided he wanted to makea documentary about Maiden. We found Maiden, she burst back into my life and reminded me a lot of thingsI had forgotten, actually, over the years, about following my heart and my gut and really being part of the universe. And everything I find important in life, Maiden has given back to me. Again, we rescued her -- we did a Crowdfunder -- we rescued her from the Seychelles. Princess Haya, King Hussein's daughter, funded the shipping back to the UKand then the restoration. All the original crew were involved. 

We put the original team back together. And then we decided,what are we going to do with Maiden? And this, for me,really was the moment of my life where I looked backon every single thing that I'd done -- every project, every feeling, every passion,every battle, every fight -- and I decided that I wanted Maidento continue that fight for the next generation. Maiden is sailing around the worldon a five-year world tour. We are engaging with thousandsof girls all over the world. We are supporting community programsthat get girls into education. Education doesn't just meansitting in a classroom. 

This, for me, is about teaching girlsyou don't have to look a certain way, you don't have to feel a certain way, you don't have to behave a certain way. You can be successful, you can follow your dreams and you can fight for them. Life doesn't go from A to B. It's messy. My life has been a messfrom beginning to end, but somehow I've got to where we're going. The future for usand Maiden looks amazing. And for me, it is all about closing the circle. It's about closing the circle with Maiden and using her to tell girls that if just one person believes in you, you can do anything.